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 disclaimer [insert disclaimer] `icouldwaitforever_its worth it;  myPROFILE: talz* female sixteEn tms likes: reading. writing. travelling. music. a certain someone =p. myWISHLIST: insert wishiies((: ok. gonna be honest here. if i had blogged 24hrs earlier, this entry would have contained a sincere letter to my dear band leaders and nothing else. but since then, well, at least they had tried planning smth for us today. and for tt, i am somewhat pacified, i guess. i guess most people could look at us perf band fluties and just despise us for our attitude and tears. i'll be honest, i cannot guarantee tt if i were in syf band and looked back on those red eyed, black faced band mates, i'd not feel distaste. but then again. things are always the clearest and sharpest when it comes thru the eyes of a victim. maybe it is hard to understand. maybe it is hard to find something to do with us. but i can surely say that never have I felt more alone in our crowded band room. never have I felt more like a loser in front of the gold distinction medal delicately stored in the cupboard. never have I brushed my suckiness off, stalling the the hard work to another day. yes. u must be thinking I'm so longwinded. i repeat this everytime i blog. when will i ever stop all this self pity? its irritating. so it is. and by all means, hate me. i feel old. i have spent a lot of time trying to be someone no one can critisise. someone no one can look at and say "oh, she's a bitch". whether i was successful or not, its for u to judge. but lately, its been trying. its hard to watch ur behavior when u have ur feelings to deal with too. its hard to stop urself frm not giving a shit. the o levels. everyone has a diff horror story to relate. ur a math grades suck cuz of carelessness. tell me how to save my sanity. ` 9:44 PM  myLINKS: florence marcus pinyi jessica valerie mish lynn eugene ben/wong brian amy unforgettableMOMENTS: 12/01/2003 - 01/01/2004 01/01/2004 - 02/01/2004 02/01/2004 - 03/01/2004 03/01/2004 - 04/01/2004 04/01/2004 - 05/01/2004 05/01/2004 - 06/01/2004 06/01/2004 - 07/01/2004 11/01/2004 - 12/01/2004 12/01/2004 - 01/01/2005 01/01/2005 - 02/01/2005 02/01/2005 - 03/01/2005 03/01/2005 - 04/01/2005 04/01/2005 - 05/01/2005 05/01/2005 - 06/01/2005 06/01/2005 - 07/01/2005 08/01/2005 - 09/01/2005 11/01/2005 - 12/01/2005 templateCREDITS: Icon Blogger Blogskins Psdelightful Template by `myriadstars;* [insert tagboard here] PREFERRED SETTINGS: Width: 200 ; Height: 250 | ||
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